|I am leaning the wrong way|
I think this post is more for me (I need an outlet) then those reading it and maybe Vic will read it to and understand why I am on the fence post
Did you know the sound of your voice makes me feel all warm inside?
The sight of you brings a relief to my heart?
Or being enclosed in your arms tells me all is well in our world?
What about when you hand is spread across my tush- that I feel that I am yours.
Did you know that when your hand is placed on the small of my back or wrapped around the back of my neck that desires runs through me knowing you will lead me where you want me?
When you lecture me, I know you care enough to show it?
Or when you place me over your lap or bend me over and bring redness to my tush you set off an emotional release for me and I feel loved and cherished?
That when you agreed to this my insides felt relief that I no longer had to take care of everything and worry if I was doing it all right?
Did you know I want to be your first priority, my safety, my well being, my health, and that I desperately need you to be?
Sometimes what I do and what I am suppose to do are worlds apart and that is when I need you to take over and lead me where I need to be.?
Did you know that when you don't hold me accountable for the goals we set for me, I hear that I am not important enough for you to focus on me?
Or that things that bother or annoy you are more important than my vows I made to you?
That to the outside world I am strong, determined, focused, a mother lion protecting her cubs, but inside I am insecure, scared, that I want nothing more then to be your good girl and I need you to chase away the monsters that live under the bed?
Did you know my biggest fear is losing you?
That my favorite place in eternity is safely wrapped in your loving arms?
Did you know my love for you is my driving force? That I crave your love, attention, kisses, hugs, smacks, lectures, leadership, discipline and approval like nothing else?
Did you know?