So feeling like a yo-yo -
Life is kind of like this for me right now
I love our new DD relationship
What the heck was I thinking
Ok so it isn't all bad, I think Vic likes it.
Oh no he doesn't he is just amusing me.
I am glad he motivated me to work out
If I gotta work out one more time and listen to how I am doing it wrong....
I am so happy to have quit smoking, I love how I feel, it is great to save the money,
I don't care if I pay 50 bucks I want a cigarette.
I love my diet, it is making me healthy
I want a bucket of ice cream, whipped toppings, nuts, banana,
He is starting to discipline me, we are going to be ok
It has minimal effect, really make me count
We are becoming so close I am opening up and starting to share my feelings
It becomes it's my fault no really it is mine, who cares who fault it is- What are we going to do about it
I have cried a bucket of tears - I don't get it- who is this emotional woman living in my body
He is stepping up taking the lead- woohoo yippie
Ok so not so much
What am I missing- I feel like running through the house singing
Yes, no, maybe, I don't know, can you repeat the question? You're not the boss of me now, You're not the boss of me now, You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big. You're not the boss of me now, You're not the boss of me now, You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big. Life is unfair...
Ok maybe I need to explain to all of you what has brought this on in my humble little home:
The other day Vic said something that annoyed me, it had to do with female parts and I being me took it completely out of content. During our weekly DD conversation we discussed it. One of my vows is I am
forbidden not allowed to speak negative of myself jeez oh petes I can't believe it and it is a big one for Vic (lord why couldn't it of been swearing). So not having a very high image of myself is a given so when he said wow look at them @%&$ my mind went right to well no wonder he isn't into this he admires that and down the spiral my little brain went. I didn't even pause on landing to catch my breath
SO what the (fill in the blank) is wrong with me? Have I lost my mind? What is it going to take to make me realize -
He loves me more than anything!
He really is into TTWD- (this is a huge one for me, doubt doubt doubt)
He is one of the greatest guys on the planet
What does this all mean?
Am I all alone on the yo-yo project
Oh someone please pop my bubble and give me some insight.