Saturday morning found me in an unusual position, oh yeah you know the one were we all saying that silent little plea that really I am in trouble for this, really I promise I will be good it won't happen again. But no matter how much we make that plea we still find ourselves OTK and hearing those sweet words that say I love you enough to do this and as my HoH says this is going to hurt you more than it hurts me- Gulp.
Last week Vic and I sat down after my last posting and had a true heart to heart about why I wanted this, why I needed this and what I needed from him. For the first time I felt we truly made a huge step forward in this ttwd and I found myself in a very happy safe loving place and still do even today.
Part of our conversation was about rules, guidelines, and or something to this effect. We finally after reading others and discussing our home came to this. I have vows that I have made to him, I guess some would consider them rules but for me these are my vows as his submissive wife that I will uphold they will never change they are the core to our DD relationship and very important to Vic and I. In addition we will have few rules that Vic will set and are subject to change as needed.
One of my vows and something I have been trying to do for years is
I know I know please for goodness sake I know. It is my dirty little secret- well it was lol. So during our chat he gave me a daily goal for the week and said I was to be on the honor system. Each day like a good girl I wrote down how many I consumed. I should of realized there would be a day of reckoning and a body part to go with it. I am happy to report that I haven't had so much as a puff since Friday night and my tush is still in agreement that if it has anything to say about it I won't be puffing or inhaling or smelling any of those nasty things again. If I can figure out how to put a counter on my blog I will start a smoke free one- 1.5 is today's. Way to go Cathy! Woohoo- yippee...
I know I am in a better place this past week, Vic has stepped up and has been keeping me in line alot more than ever. I am hearing more of "you are being mouthy" "knock it off" and "we will discuss that later" oh dear my CookieMonster is showing off his pecks (hehe).
Have a great week my friends.